Many people who are close to me have told me I have an amazing gift. It’s one that I have been hesitant to share with many people other than close friends (and friends of my close friends) who have specifically asked me to do so. Even as I write this now, I can feel my stomach doing some flips and dips at the very thought that I am actually going to expose a part of me that I have kept pretty much hidden for several years.
Why come out now? Why expose myself to a mixed bag of opinions (everyone seems to have plenty of these!;) that could range from “Wow, that’s amazing!” to FB friend deletions. I might even be subjecting myself to phone calls from “concerned friends” trying to convert to me. Many people have little knowledge or true understanding… of exactly what this gift really is (yes, I know one isn’t suppose to end a sentence with “is”, but I just did;).
Here’s why I am coming out:
As my Rutz (pronounced roots) line of natural, organic skin care has been gaining popularity, many clients and retailers have been asking, “What makes Rutz different? I have danced around the topic for about three years now. I’ve used more conventional words to describe the difference. But in doing so, the real story remains hidden. A couple weeks ago someone said to me, “Steph, when you started this brand, I remember one of the things you said you wanted the most was to be ‘the purple cow.’ Yet it seems as though you are trying to appeal to the masses since you are hiding the secret ingredient of your product and your story.”
I’ve always considered myself as someone who takes in being authentic and not caring what other people think about me—as long as I am doing the right thing and being a good person. I don’t try to change for anyone. So, why in the world would I play it safe with something that truly is one of my greatest gifts?
FEAR. Yep, I am constantly telling people I don’t have it, but it simply isn’t true. I have zero fear for most things, EXCEPT this! I have tried to convince myself, and those around me, that inserting different words for the real gift is just the same. Truth? It simply is not. My real reason for watering down my explanation about “the difference”—and using my carefully chosen “safe” words—is because of this question I am about to ask. (The very question that makes me sick inside because I didn’t realize I would ever have the insecurities buried inside me to even let these words leave my mouth.) Here it is…
What will people think?
Just looking at this question makes me want to slap myself! If you were to ask that question in a conversation, I am the girl that would say without hesitation, “Who gives a shit! You can’t worry about what other people think about you. If you are a good person and you are good to others and you are living your truth then you have nothing to explain. You don’t need to apologize for being different from the herd of people whose actions are generally motivated by other people’s responses and opinions. Get a set of you-know-what. Live YOUR life—not one based on gaining acceptance by others. To thine own self be true.”
Yep, I would tell you ALL those things. I generally live my own life that way, with this one exception. So, I figured now is about the perfect time to get real with myself and stop watering down this gift I have been given.
So, if you haven’t figured out what that gift is, it’s this: I am a Reiki Master. Reiki is a beautiful energy/healing modality that has been practiced for over a hundred years. Many hospitals have caught on to the amazing healing benefits of Reiki. They have many of their nurses Reiki-attuned. I think that’s super cool and very telling. Hopefully that means that that general public will gain a better, more open-minded understanding of Reiki in our very near future.
But, until then, I can’t wait for Reiki to be considered “mainstream” and completely accepted by all. I just trust that the certain people in my circles will understand it. If the others judge or deem it “odd” … well, that’s got to be okay by me, too. I’ve always said, you can’t “be” for everyone or you’ll become a watered-down version of yourself.
So, cheers to being different and embracing whatever comes along with that unique, authentic package!
Much love, light & just as many laughs,